I had the best of intentions

 

Pastor Dave and some of the worship team

Sitting in my "church"

    Does the best of intentions really count? I have wondered that SO MANY times in my life. This morning, I got up got ready for church and was attempting to help Noah & Charley get ready as well. Well, it went downhill quickly! The toddler did not want to cooperate, and it was nap time (at 10:00 a.m.) Charley could not find a shirt to wear, that I thought was "good enough" for church and quite frankly I was just in a bad mood by this point. So, I decided that I was going to put Noah down for a nap, Charley was going to draw or read a book and I was going to my she-shed for church. I went up with my headphones and my phone and had church and drank coffee and ate snacks in the peace and quiet. I actually got to listen to church and focus on the sermon. Pastor Dave preached on how no matter what we do, Jesus loves us. I even took notes and inserted my name in there... I have made many mistakes, but Jesus loves McKession. John 3:16 - For God so loved McKession, that he gave his only Son for her. When you word it like that it just hits differently. I can believe that God loves other people and I know that He loves me too, but sometimes I wonder if I've messed up too bad? You know, is He up there shaking His head at me sometimes and covering his face like what in the world is she doing/saying?!?!  🤦When you insert your name into those scriptures though, it becomes more specific, at least to me. 

    I know it is important to take my children to church. I feel like I have raised my kids in church. The older boys were raised in church, do they go like they should, no; but I stand on the scripture "Train up a child in the way he should go and when he is old, he will not depart from it." They know. I will still continue to take Charley & Noah to church. Noah cries when I take him to the nursery and Charley usually stays with him. He will get over that eventually. I know if I continue to take him, he will learn to stay in there and that mom will be back in a little bit. I know that him going from pew to pew during church doesn't bother Pastor Dave or anyone else, only me. We go to church to be "fed", but we also have to be the church. That was the title of many sermons during Covid when we couldn't go to church. When I go to church it just seems like my week is easier. I go "get me some Jesus" and it just makes me feel better mentally. It "fills my cup" as my Aunt Norma says. I will try again next Sunday and hopefully we can actually go to the house of the Lord to worship with our church family. I am trying to give myself some grace for today though. 

    I hope everyone has a fantastic week and has enjoyed this beautiful October weather we have been having. It's going to get cold this week, but it will be November, so it is to be expected. 

Wishing you sunny skies and green pastures,

McKession